The Diary of a Young Man

Very happy!

I had a lot of things done today! It was great! I should rest now thanks a lot church then go out, buy things I need.!

Duty starts tomorrow

I woke up 11:30am. It was ridiculously hot but still manageable. I immediately cleaned my face using ‘Master facial cleanser: Oil contol.’ I am so obsessive-compulsive on my external appearance. It is just a part of my topsy-turvy life. I failed to take a capsule of both stresstabs and metathione last night that’s why I ordered my little sister, Elaine to buy both this afternoon. After buying the medicines I need, I took them quickly. I feel very complete to start my day well. I also realized the foul smell emitted in our common bedroom was due to a decaying cat corpse on our ceiling. It was good to know it because we suspected that the foul odor was from the improperly placed shaft. My stomach is a bit aching from the hyperacidity brought by my intake of medicines.

I will be taking a bath at 2pm and soon will buy paraphernalias I lack. I am still happy for what this day could bring.

Wish me the best of health!

I feel very good. It is still hot! I am awaken by the heat of summer at 11am. We ate squid ball but all good. I am indulged with the meal. I lie on the bed thinking of my physical appearance. I commonly easily get depressed and anxious about any negative on my external look. I love my self so much that some people may say it is too much. Serenity is my best cure for anxiety and depression.

I only wish I could be perfect. It won’t happen anyway. I am somehow happy in my life. I love my family! they contribute to my happiness. My brother downloaded ‘fire Emblem’ today. I finished the game already but I want to play the game again after a year. This post is short because I am just starting my day. I love it.!

Bless me! Have faith!

It is hot as usual. I am still trying to enjoy the day by surfing the internet. I recently looked above our 2nd floor. It looks well but small. It is not done yet so I have to increase my expectations. I had also a nice bath but sweating cannot be prevented since its hot. I still look good!

I am trying to be cool and it works for me. I wish it would be winter now so I can enjoy more the day. I am still happy for this way.  My heart is feeling that I can rest well today. I want to travel in Baguio but sadly no time and budget are allotted. I want a cold embrace for me to achieve a state of serenity. This day is just all other days I had before. It is hot, irritating and simple.

Wish me well and the best of health

It is hell. Everyday of summer is hell like. Hell like is heat loving, pain producing and irritation stimulating event. I already had numerous chances of sweaty minutes. I had rashes on my left elbow and it is pruritic. Laughing is no significant healer for this unfortunate natural circumstance. I had to endure 2 months of scorching heat. I must endure before its too late. My head hurts, skin itchy and old looking. I believe these are harsh effects of tremendous heat. Cold drinks, good fans and limited body activity served as a diversion for my physical symptoms. It was not enough since I am a hyperhidrosis patient. Right now, I have sweat covered my forehead. It was just 20 minutes since I’d finished bathing. Dissapointed, a word I immediately thought. I felt it the most as I looked at my face in the mirror.

I started to be perfectionist. It is brought in the way I think and act. I have to be this way for me to achieve what I want. Not everything cannot be achieved this way but trying is no sin if you have nothing intentional harm to do. I love my self but I feel I lack appreciation for every good happened in my life. To me it is not enough. To me it is just a safety net. I had been feeling this way and I wish no harm unintentional to be made. I don’t like enemies. I want things to be peaceful and the way I want and need to be. I have nothing to apologize if I did something for me is right.

Heat!!!! Chaotic Philippine climate. I hate this!!! I observed that 7pm to 6am is the most ideal temperature range but I cannot stay awake at that duration. Classes are getting near. April 13 would be the official start of our summer class. I need to adjust or I will suffer great in the negative effects of heat, insomnia and anxiety. Life should be well planned before you realized mistakes that would totally ruin your future.

House is still dusty, inconvenient and almost ecent fo living. I need to enure for my good and others around me. This will be the last day before the construction workers have their holiday. I wish they will come back next week   to finish the job they started. I find them good.

It has been a long time since I last posted here. A lot of things happened in my life that I failed to post here on a daily basis. I can say that those experiences were an eye opener, mind boggling and physically demanding but it was both rewarding and marvelling in the end. I am a bit disappointed because of the external appearance of our underconstructed house.

The construction of the 2nd floor of the house started on the last week of March. Surprisingly, it was over designed. Approximately P60,000 were spent on the 6 beams plus weekly wage already. It was depressing and annoying that it occurred. My mother was in dismay over the said news and she did a few adjustments for us to live comfortably in our house partially without a roof. My heart was so over it and I only shutted my mouth before I say anything sarcastic. Currently, the temperature in the ground floor where I do computer jobs was good and it is no longer very hot. The 2nd floor improved extremely well but the thing that worries me the most is when it rains. It will definitely flood the ground floor therefore no area for sleep. We’re lucky its summer and rainy days are less likely.

I wish this construction will be done as soon as possible. The longer the duration the costlier it gets. This will be my official post for the day. May God forbids to rain.

Have a pleasant day!