The Diary of a Young Man

This would be the last day of August and I know it would be the same day as yesterday. I woke up at 4 am and prepared my self for the sunday morning shift in Comembo lying-in clinic. I finished at 5am and left home by a taxi to school. I got there at 5:25am. The bus left school at 5:40am and reached comembo lying-in at 6:10am. The first handle for the day changed their attire to delivery room uniforms while the others bought break fast outside. We ate at the ground floor while waiting for a patient.

Time passes by and none came for a delivery. I had took vital signs at 8am on Bed 5 and bed 7. Both mothers are cooperative and nice. I took the vital signs of the neonate. I got good results. Anyway, Greenwich representative got on the 3rd floor. He offered us the menus. I orderd chicken ala king with extra rice. The order was ready at 11am. The order costs me about 60 pesos. I had done the vtal signs for 12 noon to the neonate. It was hasty situation due to the fact that both babies had their bowels done. I changed the diaper of the baby on bed 7. I had a bit of anxiety doing it because of a CERTAIN accident that may lead to harsh physiologic reults. hahaha…

I finished doing everything to be done to the newborns of both beds at 12:25pm. I was partially sweating most of the vital signs taking because the ward is warm. I was so thankful that I did not get the vital signs of the mother especially the blood pressure. Both of my hands are wet due to my palmat hyperhidrosis which both mothers are not familiar with. They may perceive that I am not confident doing my vital signs if ever my sweaty hands landed on their arms. I have nothing to worry about because babies cannot do harsh criticism at their age. hahaha…

By 1pm, my classmates prepared to leave the lying-in. The bus was already there waiting for us. Once we are done with the preparations with bid farewell to all mothers there. I got into the bus and we left at 1:30pm. I left the bus at around buting and ride a taxi on the way home. It costs me 105. Anyway, I reached home safe and sound. I started reviewing for the quiz on Mrs. Umandap’s subject on N201 baout pain namagement. I was done at 5pm. I started reviewing Mrs. Celiz’ coverage of the quiz about sick baby and I was done at 8pm. I ate my dinner after that,. It was good. I started doing my drug study and finidhed at 9:15pm.

It was a busy day and good night’s rest will do the trick. I will be waking up at 5am. I really need a break from this busy week.

Good night!!! Good morning September first!!

I woke up at 4am. It is another day of duty. I reached school at 5:25am. We left school by the school bus at 5:40am. I do not worry about the doctor some had said been too strict and very loud. We reached comembo lying-in at around 6:15am. We had our things placed on the 3rd floor. We have no conference room instead we had a little place there for all of us. The first group who will go under labor includes me that’s why I had changed my uniform to the delivery room uniform. The rest bought foods for our break fast. After 30 minutes, they arrived with break fast. I ate tapsilog. It costs 35 pesos but worth the price.

The rest of my group mates have patient assignments who they will take vital signs and etc. I have no patient since I belong to the first group to handle a labor in comembo. In the afternoon, Greeenwich and chowking representatives arrived on the third floor both offering menus for our lunch. I ordered pork chao fan and chicken ala king but when the time came that they had our orders mine was not available or my order was mistaken for the other. My classmates who did not order any food from their menu goes outside to buy their lunch in andoks. I took the chance and asked Arra to buy me a pork chop from andoks. They returned with pork chops and  liter of coke. The food was ok but not the best. It costs me 74 pesos. Anyway, while I eating a patient got in ready for delivery. I was shocked from seeing that event. I have no choice but to leave my lunch and proceed to the delivery room. I reached the delivery room where I was assigned as cord care. The doctor was in and she was loud talking to her staff.

I do not like the manner the doctor is talking to her staffs and patients. It is as if she holds their lives and treats them like her slave. I was a bit terrified with that scene. She looks like cruela devile of 101 dalmatians and I cannot take her attitude. I wonder if she will do anything verbally assaulting to me. The only verbalization I got from her was about the cotton balls being to many and my shoes that do not look washable enough. I guess it is because my shoes doesn’t look white enough. Once I received the baby from the assist, I was shaking as I do oil bath, cord care and injection of vitamin K. I was ashamed that my tremors are showing badly. I was experiencing moderate anxiety. After everything was done, the baby was taken up to the third floor with the mother. The baby was taken by Love Joy. Anyway, when I reached the third floor I talked to mam about how bad the doctor looked inside the delivery room. The assist or attending cleaner there had tasked the girls on our subgroup to carry things that shouldn’t be taken cared of. I am glad it is over. I changed my clothes once the clock trke 12:45pm. When I finished changing my attire, I fixed my things for departure. The service arrived at 1:15pm. We are expecting to leave at 1:30pm. Mam delos santos had done insp[ection of patients before leaving the clinic. We met some global students and mam delos santos spoke of something funny but for that global student she carried it seriously. We laughed inside the van as it leaves at 2:00pm. We had our laughs about what had happened earlioer about the global student. Leslie also talked about the impartment of knowledge of one of the students there. I cannot remain inside the van long because I reached my final destination. I left the van at market! market! I took a taxi that costs me 80 pesos. Everything was well when I reached the house. I started doing my concept map and nursing care plans at 2:00pm. I finished at 6:00pm. I was so slow but not sure finishing it. hahaha.

I had took my sibling’s blood pressure at around 7pm. I cannot believe that my stethoscope doesn’t satisfy my hearing pleasures. I guess I need to buy a more functional one or it is just me who is wrong. Anyway, the weird thing I got from the blood pressure taking was my 2nd to the eldest brother. He got a blood pressure of 110/100. I repeated it twice and got the same result. He was sleeping at that time and I was expecting the gap beween the diastolic and systolic pressure would be more that 10.

I also chat with my good friend Hazel, a former high school classmate for 2 years and still a good friend in real life. She reveals to me a beautiful chinese pop music. It is entitled in english as love and honesty. I played the video in youtube and it is definitely good to hear. I played it repetitive times. I love how the sound emitted by the movement of the second hand of clock goes along with the beginning and last part of the song. If only I know mandarin therefore I can take the meaning of the song at heart. I read a lot of excellent remarks about that song. I know it looks good since the music video depicts love and sacrifice and obviously HONESTY!

I will be eating a little bit late maybe at 8:45pm. My brother is the one cooking for us. He knows how to cook well and I seriously believe he can be a good chef someday. I hope he won’t spoil our dinner. My father will be getting home kind a late in the evening. I need unifporms tomorrow so I firmly believe he will arrive at least 9:30pm. We will be having duty tomorrow and it will be on comembo still the good thing is that the doctor who attended our group earlier will not be the one attending tomorrow. It is certainly good news for future groups.

Good night

I woke up at 4am. I attended to my hygienic needs for school. I reached school at 5:25am. It would be a good day for the group because we will be having a home visit. We waited until the clock strike 7:30am. We left school to go to Comembo health center. I never been there before that’s why I am also excited for the trip. It would be the longest trek of the the school bus than any community visit I know. We reached there in a partially hot morning. The health center was beautiful in and out. Mam Delos Santos received the list of the houses to be visited. We have 8 mothers to interview.

We left the health center in 1 group. We have our long black umbrellas with us as we walked in the town. We reached a total of 5 houses and the rest are difficult to reach. We endured the sweaty walks and bad turn arounds when we got to the addres of the mothers. The patient assigned to me cannot be reached due to a change in her current address. I am a bit disappointed for it but that’s how life goes.  We ate at a gotohan. I had a plain goto and a 7-up softdrink. I was not indulged completely for the food I ate. After every meal was finished, we went to the health center to leave that day. It was 10:30am when the service arrived. We got in and even though inside was hot I patiently waited to reach school.

At 11:00am, we reached school and I immediately got inside the library to complete my chapter 4 for the individual case study. I was in a bit shocked knowing I was wrong in creating the pathophysiology I completed yesterday. I was in a hurry to finish the draft of the chapter 4. It was a bit messy and uncoordinated but I know it will set well once I encoded it. I thought of leaving school at 3:00pm but decided to stay to complete the chapter 5 and correcting my errors in pathophysiology. In the end, my newly revised pathophysiology was very long extending to 3 pages. I left school once I’m done coppying the format on the drug study and chapter 5.

I accidentally picked up the CHN bag of Mark. I dined in at jolibee for I failed to eat myu lunch at 1pm. It was already 3:30pm when I ate there. I left and ride a jeepney noticing my skin imperfections as I glance on the side mirrors but who cares. I reached home at exactly 5:15pm, i was a bit tired and take a capsule of centrum. It really helped me gain the energy that was lost earlier. I encoded my newly edited pathophysiology and successfully finished after an hour. When I about to g\start my chapter 4, I realized that the draft I made in the bond paper was lost. I was anxious about its where abouts. I contacted Arra whether she had it or not. I decided to make one again. In the end it finished with a 2 paged chapter 4. I was contented with what I had finished and thanked God for the simple blessings I received today.

I hope all of yuou will have a good night’s rest.
Good night!

I woke up at 6:30am. It was a sunny morning and I prepared my self for school. Today, group 1 will have a meeting to complete the entire group case study. It was traffic when I left home and from 7:30am I was stranded along Mckinley road where mansion-like houses covered the side of the road. I reached school at 9am.

I immediately started doing my part for the group case study. I wrote the analysis and interpretation of data for the nursing diagnosis: risk for fluid volume deficit. I finished at exactly 10:25am and passed it to the encoder. I cooperated with the pathophysiology development committee. I contributed a little for the development of a schematic diagram of the pathophysiology. I took the first move on making one for "acute pain." I did not succeed flawlessly in that part that’s why Isay and the others formulated much more to the development of the diagnosis and branching out to related diagnoses as well. I was not feeling well in the middle of the formulation. I got a bit dizzy and been silenced for a while.

It was 12 noon when we had our lunch break. I had a separate way in enjoying my lunch. I went up to the student’s lounge and indulged my self with sisig and 3 extra cups of rice. In the end of my lunch, I was very full and the dizziness faded away. I reached the library at 1pm with any hygienic practices done before getting in. I was greeted with a question, "ok ka lang ba Corro?" I replied, "Oo naman." I continued doing my individual case study in the library. I had finished doing the drug study that day and got significant information that would help a lot in making chapters 3, 4 and 5. Jezel left the library earliest and followed by Me, Arra and leslie. The other members of the group are on the 1st floor encoding the chapters 3, 4 and 5. Mark was surprised seeing me for he believed that I left early during lunch. The others dined in Mcdonald’s that’s why they had that guess. 

I left in a partially hot afternoon. I got in the jeepney and I was with a very peculiar passenger. I was really annmoyed on her murmurings and body movements as if she does not want any physical contact with me. Grrr… I hate those kind of people. Anyway, I realized I had a very poor patience. Before I dined in the student’s lounge located at the 8th floor of kalayaan building, I went to jolibee first but was extremely irritated with the slow service they are having. I also practiced conscious breathing exercises because I believe it can reduce certain anxieties I am having that would decrease perspiration rates.

I reached home at a good 5pm. I started encoding the poathophysiology of my individual case study. To be honest, I believed that it would take me 4 pages to make a pathophysiology but in the end I got a single page. It composed of a schematic diagram compiled with the normal and abnormal process occurring in the study that got me to my 4 nursing diagnoses. Anyway, I was contented with the result. It was 9pm when I finished the chapter 3 also. I had a lot of cut and paste there from my nursing care plan to the 3rd paragraph of each analysis and interpretation of data per diagnosis. I spend the rest of my available time chatting a little bit and typing this blog.

Tomorrow will be a test of my physical endurance. We will be going to house to house and getting desired information from the mother about how well are they doing? etc. We will be doing a\our community duty in Comembo lying-in clinic and I expect something bad will happen. Comembo lying-in clinic duty will happen for frifay, saturday and sunday alone this week. That’s good news because I have no plans staying there for another week. I love our clinical instructor so much!!!

Good night!

I woke up at 9am. I took a bath and prepared my self for school. I reached school at 12 noon. We had our classes in pathophysiology started at 1:30pm. We had our quiz and I passed but disappointed for the score I got. After the classes, I visit the library. I started doing my drug study and it was fair work. I was done at 6pm. I left school with Isay and Jezel.

As we are in the jeep along Ayala road, we are disturbed by the problems the jeepney encountered that led us to walk to the nearby station. We endured the long walk but still merry upon conversing on different topics. Isay took pictures of us while we are walking along the busy streets. The lights were illuminating our path as well the background pictures. We did enjoy the walk even I am sweating profusely. Jezel and I bid good bye to Isay as she reached the terminal. We waited for 10 minutes on a colorum jeep. We got in and I left the jeep at Market! Market! I returned home at 7:00pm sweating.

Once I got home, I changed my uniform to the one I commonly use indoors. I ate my dinner at 8pm. After finishing my dinner, I played beautiful music that made me reminisce the past all over again. It was a wonderful experience today. I really hope tomorrow won’t be that rainy.

Good night!

I woke up at 5am and I reached school at 7am. Classes started at 8am with Mrs. Umandap. We had our quiz and I had a high 90% mark. After the subject I spend my time in the library searching for the correct format on chapters 4, 5 an 6. I reviewed a bit on "Brazelton Neonatal Behavioral Assessment." We had our quiz at 1pm on Mrs. Celiz’ subject. I had a lot of mistakes and I am very disappointed up to the subject’s end.

It was rainy after when we left school. I was with Leslie, Jezel and Adrian. Adrian encourages us to take a taxi that we all agree. We waited for an hour and a half until we got into the cab. We are conversing in the taxi on what had happened today. Leslie first left the cab followed by Adrian and then Jezel. I was the only one left in the cab and I will be going home.

It was a good ride. I talked to the driver about how he earned a living before he was a taxi driver. He told me that he was a security guard and earning 14k per month. He had 3 children and the first 2 had spouses already not taking college. He was upset for the outcome and voluntarilly helped her eldest daughter’s husband to have a work. I listened to him attentively and realized he is a good father. He reads the bible and said some lines to me. I am having a good mood at that time even though he take me to routes that would cost me more. Anyway, I asked him about his youngest son. His son finished Information technology in a certain college and now applying for work. I am glad his son could help his family financially. His boundary is 1,250 and did not have that amount of money at this point. It was a rainy day and getting passengers was difficult for him since he was new to this work. He is a kind driver and politely asked me some questins regarding the course I took. I answered him honestly and we agreed in several issues.

It was already 7pm. We were stuck on "Waterfun," the U-Turn to reach our place. I used that stranded time for the conversation. I immediately realized that everything in this world is not actually fair. Reality is twisted and we will see it as an adventure and discovery. I paid the taxi 250 pesos. I will be dividing the fare for us 4. Anyway, I reached our place flooded and I have no choice but to walk and let my black shoes wet.

I reached home extremely bad. It was flooded and my brother needs to wipe the floor for renewing the beauty the living room had before. My father was angry at that point without any specific reason. I know it is because a lot of work is to be done and he needs to participate in it after going from a busy working schedule. I started reviewing for the quiz in pathophysiology again. The quiz was supposed to happen the week before but due to suspension of classes, the quiz was cancelled and moved to this week. I memorized and understood most of the terms and it was not that difficult for me to master some terms in the hand out. I ate my dinner at 9pm and finished reviewing at 9:45pm. I was not very sleepy at taht point that’s why I used the internet and entertain me with some stuff in the internet.

I hope classes won’t be cancelled tomorrow. I have a strong feeling that God will shed light fo our quiz.

Good night!

I woke up at 9am and it was satisfactory day. I listened to songs that made me sad and it made me cry somehow. I listened to songs "Pweyde ba" by soapdish and any songs that would fit me emotions well. I had done my part reviewing for the quizzes tomorrow. It took me a lot of hours before finishing the first subject. I was happy that the first subject was over after 2 hours. I had a very disturbing afternoon after listening the songs I liked. I cannot help but recall the good things that happened in my life.

I also cleaned the house at a good rate of an hour. I sweep the floor as well as picking trash inside the house. It is not an easy thing to do the chores alone while the others are outside doing what they want. I had also downloaded deal or no deal once again because the one we have currently is not working and luckily it worked this time. I had a good time playing that game because I won the jackpot of $21,200,000 in virtual money. I hope it was real but itwas not. I know I could handle a lot of money once I worked persistenly. I also played with my brother the home made deal or no deal and on his 2nd game he won 15 pesos. I was not bothered with his win because I have a lot money in my wallet at this point. I am currently earning at least 1,000 a week and will put that in good cause.

I ate my dinner after all the chores and reviews are over. I had a good dinner with my family and ate corned beef with 3 cups of rice and a glass of juice. Everything was working well with my father and I had no intentions causing a fight. This day is truly the same old day like what I have in my review days. I believe a lot of days like this will happen during this year. I am missing something in my life. I can feel it in my heart and I will do the best that I can to know it without asking someone.

I hope all of you will have a good day. I know you will hae one.

I woke up from a good sleep and I was thinking what would I do this day. I thought immediately about the individual case study. As far as I can remember, the case study will be passed at the last meeting of the 3rd rotation. I realized it is a very busy job doing something in the group case study while doing your individual case study. Both of them matters and I simply want to finish both studies in the right time. I took a bath at an early 8am and I started doing my individual case study at 9am.

I was occupied thinking on what to put in the introduction of my study. I had a quick thinking that the book I bought will be very handy. I copied some data in the book as the introduction which is simply acceptable to be included. I had finished the entire chapter one at 12 noon.

During lunch, my father prepared macaroni with spaghetti. I was indulged eating it. I had a stomach ache after an hour eating 2 plates of macaroni and to be able to relieve the pain, I done something VERY interesting. I continued doing my case study at 1pm. I started doing the chapter 2 which include client presentation, concept maps, nursing care plans and pathophysiology. I am so happy that I finished doing all of them at 4:35pm. I wonder what useful would I do next.

I used the remaining time I have this day browsing the internet. I am still waiting for good news which some people would wonder but unfortunately I had none. I wish I will get use to this. I waited and sat in front of the computer listening to songs, piano pieces good to hear. I read some posts in the alternative section that talks about "love." I read a post concerning a relationship which is getting bad as days pass. I felt sad for the couple and commented good advices to hang on not for the relationship but for the love they had to each other.

I watched the chronicles of Riddick in star movies. I recalled the youth I had before. I miss those days and living with it again will bring back good and bad memories. I ate my dinner which once again involved the pasta category. I am expecting another stomach ache later and I hope it won’t come back. Before I forget, I was having a dilemma whether to buy a camera or not but I promised someone I won’t buy that one. I understand why he said that. I need more money for my health which is true and for my family. I guess i will deposit the money I’d earned in a reliable bank after finishing the requirements needed as well as school works. It is another satisfactory night and a rainy day in the morning.

I tried playing the home made, "deal or no deal" game. I enjoyed it and lost few pesos from my sister. It is truly beautiful to be with your family through ups and downs. I wonder what could be my life in the future. The only thing that I am sure of is that one day I will open my eyes and be the happiest man on Earth.

Good night

We are not perfect. We can never be one. It is up to us how we will live in our own imperfections. There are things that made us anxious like not having a good hair, darker complexion and acne. It is a part of growing to notice these changes and accepting those will make things better.

People do things to omit these imperfections. There are some who undergo plastic surgery, mimicry and repression. They are using defense mechanisms to handle the anxiety brought by their imperfections. I met these people and I can’t blame them for doing it. We are living in a country where close minded people outnumbered open minded people. It is truly a twisted world.

I looked on my mirror and see a simple me. A "me" that is trying his best to be handsome internally and externally. I was once fallen to the dangerous world of blaming my self. I was thinking ways to be better. I was wrong in believing that I cannot be handsome. I asked someone to rate me from 1 to 10, 10 being most handsome and I was rated 7 mostly. I felt good because I am more than what I perceive.

I am a busy guy but definitely have time for others. I was once said to be having less time taking care of my self. They are wrong. I had done my part to make my self better. I follow my daily schedule and comply with skin care maintenance.

I realized that looks are skin deep. We cannot describe a person holistically by their external appearnce alone. Many made wrong judgments from a basis that is not concrete. I had been fooled by kind facial expressions that in reality is bad. I conditioned my self to react in the most ideal way.

I now work in factual procedures to avoid regrets that could be prevented. I read more on a matter before trying it. I search for liable testers to have a good confidence trying a product. I am a wise consumer who never put my self in a risky position. I never risk my health for something that would make my looks better. I now trying alternative products in replacement for products that lost its direction to reach an expected goal. It is like being patient in having an effect that most likely appear for months.

Today, I still using basic aesthetic care. A student male nurse must look good in the presence of patients either rich or poor. Most people judge from looks and first impressions are commonly remembered till the termination stage. I am using Master: Anti Acne with Dermaclear C. I read a lot of excellent reviews on the product’s effectiveness in maintaining an acne free face and smooth skin. I had been using it for a week now and having positive feedbacks from my classmates.

Everything won’t last forever. I will age and have wrinkled skin. I know it will happen and I will accept these changes in my life.

GOOD EVENING

I woke up 4am and reached school at 5:20am for our duty. I was comfortable within the first 2 hours of duty but I felt head aches and dizziness. I became silenced and just sat on my place until the duty ended. After the duty I, Arra and Leslie went to have our final dose of vaccine at ECC. We went there in a hot afternoon but definitely returned to school fully immunized. We had a surprise birthday celebration for Love Joy. She is a member of the group and a cheerful one. I left school partially indulged with the cake. I reached home at 6pm.

I started to do my concept map and nursing care plans for the week. I will submit those tomorrow morning. I was having a fast paced job and having errors annoyed me a lot. I finished at 10pm. I started eating my dinner that time and prepare to sleep.

I had a lot of things to do this week but I managed to do well in school. It is a sacrifice to waste an hour for selfish reasons. I have to minimize every time I have because I have to start doing my individual case study as well as the group case study. I am like chasing time and wisely using every second to do something useful.

I am starting to feel the pressure of academic demands. I need to get an over satisfactory grade to make my parents more happy. I do not have enough sleep and take no notice to physical imperfections anymore. Time is short therefore use it well.

I have a limit to take. A young man like me needs rest for some standards of health but its not practical anymore. The young need to work harder to face the giant unexpected on the way. I am trained on time pressure for developing my competencies.

Good night