The Diary of a Young Man

I woke up at 9am and took a bath at 10am. I used the internet and searched for something interesting. I logged in to youtube and searched for sad piano pieces and I spot a clip of sad japanese piano songs 1 to 5. I played each piano pieces and it made my heart sad. I felt I am riding on clouds as they speed away to a point of no return. Most of the pieces are soothing to the soul. I almost consumed 10 hours of my day listening to 11 japanese/ korean sad piano pieces. I honestly felt crying inside when hearing the 4th japanese sad song. I feel that the melancholic that I am is coming out and it is not bad at all.

Piano is my 2nd favorite musical instrument next to the violin. I do not know how to play the piano nor a violin but I believe I will learn someday. After I bought my digital camera, I will buy an electronic piano. I wonder if ever I learned earlier on how to play a piano would I be a great pianist today? I love classical music and some contemporary asian piano music especially japanese. I felt reminscing my past while listening to heart warming harmonies of the piano. I also spotted a talented young asian pianist in youtube. I love his piece, "A beautiful piano song." It made me think of a prince which is I, standing in the middle of the grand ballroom without a partner while others showing their love and affection to their partners.

Music makes people happy or sad. It opens the emotions and reveals it either to the public or conscious self. As I discover the beauty of these pieces, I learned to love them and plans to take in part in making beautiful piano pieces. I am still 18 but as I reach 21 or more I believe I can make one beautiful piece which is far from plagiarism.

I woke up at 8am, depressed. I am depressed up to 6pm. I am just staring outside. I also had my wisdom tooth on the left upper jaw removed and it costs about P400. It was done at 11:15am. The money been paid is worth the procedure. The anesthesia is effective for 2 1/2 hours. I had less bleeding. I also suffered sudden episodes of hyperhidrosis  but it didn’t matter anymore. I was prescribed with mefenamic acid and amoxicillin which I took at 2pm.

On 8:30pm, I searched the internet for the 4 personality types which I am very interested in. I found this website that requires you to take their exam to have your exact personality type. I had took mine and it took me only 5 minutes. The result is not surprising, I am melancholic 68′%. I had 10 strengths and 17 weaknesses. I will not specify each item here.

I think deeper and realized that I am really melancholic. I am depressed and most of the said strengths and weaknesses are possessed by mine. I have to live day by day with that temperament and one thing I loved about my temperament is-

MOST Melancholic people are prone to be geniuses. Wow, I never believed I am one of them.

I woke up at 10am and arrived at school at 1pm. We had our duty at 2pm and ended at 9pm. I tried to call my special someone but the phone cannot be reached.

On 11:39pm, the cellphone rang but none answered, then it became busy again.

OUCH!

——- I cannot expound anymore. too painful

its been always this way since july 16

I woke up at 6am and arrived at school at 7am. I changed my uniform to the nursery uniform at 7:30am. We had our orientation for nursery from 8aqm to 11am. We had a big lunch break and then we started our duty at 2pm.

At 2pm, We entered the nursery section, 5th floor circular of the Makati Medicat center. We observe what other nurses are currently doing. One of our classmate had experienced her first cord care. I will be next after another classmate. The nursery duty ended at 8am because we had our terminal break. Rose Aquino, a classmate and a groupmate had her birthday today. We sang and take pictures with her. We ate at Jolibee and it is fun eating together.

We left at 10pm. I am with my good classmate, jezel cuyos going home with her good mother. I reached the house at 11pm. I call my special someone.

I wake up at 11am today.

I woke up 6am and It was raining hard. I rushed through the stormy day and rode a jeepney. I was soaked and wet. I felt that my day is ruined. I reached school at 8am. We held our make up class in strategies for health teaching in mezzanine 1, ninth floor of the makati medical center. Quiz was cancelled. The class ended at 10:30am.

I had eaten my lunch at chowking with friends and classmates. I spend 71 pesos overall. It is still drizzling but I was contented from what I had eaten. I returned school at 1pm for our N201 with Dra. Salera.

1pm, we held our quiz and I got 9/15 which is quite depressing. We watched "the silence of the lambs" after Dra. Salera had taught us some lessons.

I returned home at 6pm and tomorrow we will have a duty in the nursery at 8am to 10pm. I discovered earlier that I failed to pass the envelope with y concept map and NCP in it. I had send an SMS message to Mrs. Garbida about the envelope and still with no reply from her. I am very anxious about it. The thought of the envelope made me worry a lot and I cannot help it.

I woke up at 5am and arrived at school at 7am. It is our N201 class with Dr. Bautista. We had a ten items quiz for the first 15 minutes and it happened that I got 8/10. Dr. Bautista just continued our lesson we had yesterday and after that is a film showing. We watched, "the kid" with leading star, Bruce Willis. I didn’t enjoyed the movie that much and was not laughing watching it aloud. It is a good movie if the basis for a good movie is its moral value. Classes were dismissed at 10am and we had no more class to follow so it’s my job to do my panoramic x-ray.

I commuted 45 minutes from Ayala, Makati to Pateros and when I’d reached my destination I had eaten at Greenwich for lunch. I waited for 1 hour for the  dentist to arrive and when she arrived at 12:45pm, I was shocked that her dentistry clinic does not offer panoramic xrays. I decided to return to Guadalupe, Makati to have my panoramic xrays done at Aguinaldo dental clinic. I reached there by 1:15pm and when I got inside, the rain poured heavily. I paid 500 pesos for the panoramic xray and most of the staff are not friendly looking at all. I personally believe they are acting like robots. After 15 minutes, I received my panoramic xray and then left the clinic.

It is still raining hard when I’d left the clinic and I have no umbrella because I left it in school. I waited till the rain stopped but it didn’t. It was 1:45pm that I decided to run through the rain to ride a jeepney. I was wet all over and get into a jeep which I believed will pass at market! market! but I was wrong and left the jeepney before I would be lost. At last, I spotted the right jeepney and I reached the mall after 30 minutes.

I was tired and I felt my head start to hurt so much. I still continued my agenda. I got inside the mall to pee and left immediately after that. I rode a tricycle that will be going to my dentist’s location and when I reached her place, she was not there. Her assistant told me she is in a funeral and she will return tomorrow. I gave her my panoramic xray and told that I will be calling tomorrow. I left the clinic with a pain throbbing in my head. It is still raining mildly and reached home at 3pm.

When I returned home, I fixed my self. At 3:20pm, I had my 2×2 pictures done for the BSN 3rd year ID. I also find someone to fix my wrist watch that I had for about a year now. The sum total of my expenses was P120. I reached home weary, tired and ready to collapse but I stopped thinking negative and stayed in place.

I started reviewing for our quiz by 4:15 pm and it is about something in psychopathology. My head hurts so much that I wanted to scream but I controlled my self well. I was trained to handle situations like this because there’s worst to come. I read and understood an 89 slide, powerpoint presentation with fair font size. I also reviewed for the quiz in "strategies for health teaching" tomorrow with font size=12, times new roman, single spacing and has 4 pages. I felt my tears started to flow on my eyes as pain cannot be tolerated anymore. I hold a bottle of mineral water and squeezed it with my head bowing in pain. I still proceed because I cannot let pain interfere with myacademic life. I did not take a pain killer (analgesics, mefenamic acids, paracetamols, cox-2 drugs) because it is no longer effective anymore.

I finished reviewing at 6pm and the pain gradually fell. At 7:00pm, I prepared dinner by contributing rice on the table by cooking it on the stove. I ate at 8:00pm. I felt weary still and when I tried to contact my special someone to share the experience I had earlier, the phone cannot be reached. One question popped immediately in my mind is, "why?"

I am writing this blog entry with eyes tired and fingers trembling. Pain in the head starting to come back but not as intense as before. Wish me good health because I need it.

I woke up at 5am and go to school at 7am. I was so nervous from the start of the class because Dr. Bautista is giving a recitation which is equivalent to a quiz. I was not called, good for me. He continued discussing the developmental theories up to 9:30am. Tomorrow, we will be having a quiz and I’d finished reviewing it before I started typing this post.

At 10:30am, we started our class with Ms. Celiz. It is N201 time which is the same with Dr. Bautista. She taught the lesson very well about gestational hypertension and some amniotic fluid infections. We had a quiz on the first 15 minutes of the class. I was a bit disappointed because there was an item that I kow the answer but unluckily forgotten it during the quiz. I believed I passed the quiz but won’t be able to surpass my standard of a no 85 below grade in any quiz. I am so perfectionist!! I hope it will change for the better. The class ended up at 12:30pm.

At 1:15 pm, I took my lunch in the crowded canteen. I ordered a burger steak with extra rice and a NOva that costs me 69 pesos. It was a nice lunch while the air con is on the spot brushing my back. hehehe… It rained hard that’s why our plans to play DOTA had failed. I returned back to room 601 where I waited for the next class, strategies of health teaching by Mr. Briones.  My selected classmates and friends played dugtunga ng lyrics game with me. It was a fun game that lasted for 25 minutes.

4:00pm, strategies of health teaching had started. Mr. Briones asks us to meet with our groupmates in RLE and form 1 circle. I was appointed as reporter and reported our report hehehe… I ws the first one to report that’s why I am nervous and shaking luckily the ground did not engulf me. After all of the representative of each group had reported, he taught the lesson and it finished at around 6:30pm.

I returned home in a cold night. The good thing is that no sweat was excreted profusely. I called my one and oly special someone by 8:15pm. I reviewed for the quiz tomorrow by 9:00pm. I love life

The tile of my post is taken from a line in John Denver’s Annie’s song. I loved that song it is very relaxing to the soul. It is my current favorite song in my youtube list.

I arrived at home from a tiring duty at 7:10am. I managed to take care on my daily hygiene; toothbrushing, cleaning the face and combing my hair before I sleep. I slept at about 8:15am and then I woke up at 12:15pm. I decided not to go up the bed because I firmly believe that I can still sleep but I failed and voluntarily got up from bed by 1:25pm. I took a bath at 1:30pm and finished preparing my body for a very hot day at 2:15 pm. I used the computer for my review on "sick mother" and "developmental theories" starting at 2:30pm and ended at 5:00pm. At 6:00pm, I used my computer especially for playing my favorite songs and browsing my chosen forums.

I am feeling a bit tired and discontented today because I felt a lack of energy running through my body.

At 7:00pm, I ate my dinner. At: 9:00pm, I called my SPECIAL someone via cellular phone. When I talked, it fills up my senses. Every troubles and doubts that world have to give to me were shattered and replaced with a feeling of intense love. I do believe that words are powerful when been said true from the heart. I unerstand now that love is not just seeing one another to appreciate the external beauty but to hear the beautiful things the eyes cannot able to see.

I have to be honest, I slept at 1am because of a painful accident last night. I woke up at 10:45am today and immediately took a bath. I ate my lunch at 12:30pm and had an argument with my younger brother. I started to use my personal computer and played my favorite sad, inspirational and relaxing songs. It was 2:30pm and I agreed to take a nap because I will be having my night duty at 10pm. I did not sleep very well because of a prolonged sleep time earlier. I decided to accept the fact that I could not sleep by 5pm and watched, "wish ko lang."

When I was watching "wish ko lang," I witnessed a schizophrenic former master in education teacher in UP. She speaks English well but the grammar is obvious wrong sometimes. Her daughter identifies the cause of her mother’s schizophrenia is a broken family. In the end, the mother was taken to a private mental institution and accepted it. The daughter received business showcases for her to pay the medical expenses of her mother since she had no work. The mother will avail the services of the private mental institution free of charge for 2 months.

I was touched with that episode. It seems that the love of a daughter is emphasized for her schizophrenic mother. I have also fears in life that one of my closest relative will have one.

I am now typing this blog early because I will be going to duty later on by 10pm. I am now getting the enthusiasm to write more blogs as days past. Take care of your health: MIND, boy and spirit.

Have a nice day

I woke up at 7:00am and the pinning and capping ceremony will start at 9am. I am not really excited with it. I treat it as an ordinary day. I took my daily routine quite average without any stress at all. I left home at 8:00am. I took a cab half way my trip to the venue because my classmates are texting me that they are already in line for the procession. I reached there at 8:56am, not bad at all. The cab ride costs 50 pesos. The ceremony started at 9:10am and it was not really cold inside the church. I participated passively in the ceremony as genuine as I can.

When the mass is over, I was one of the first batch to be called for the placement of the caps and pins. I was a little bit conscious on my looks when the official photographers are taking pictures of me. I am in a bad position really. It ended with a class picture together with the superiors of the school.

Outside, parents are with their children taking pictures on the special occasion. I am there alone without a parent and I understand why. I just helped my classmates in taking pictures with their family. I love to take pictures and that is one of my passions.

In the end, I returned home still face flat expressed. It is very hot but not the worst condition yet outside. It is a convenience to rest in a room where the temperature don’t exceed 35 degrees celsius YET. It was 1pm and I wished time was on the palms of my hands. I want to hasten time so I can start another morning but I can’t. I will be calling my baby later.

so far, this day was fair enough to live in harmony.