The Diary of a Young Man

It has been a long time since I started writing in this blog. I thought that blog was a waste of time and I realized it is not. I almost write here everything that happened in my life even the smallest detail sometimes. I am very happy when I reread my posts. It brings a thought of accomplishment. My day cannot be completed without a blog. I put a smile on my face when I do that. This blog, "Pale blue: secrets within" has its etymology from my favorite color, pale blue and the mystery of my life, the secrets within. My life is an open book and people who I met everyday are placed in this blog (not actually all of them). Once I grow old I will read again these posts and maybe I will cry for the memories that I will treasure for the rest of my life.

——-

Today, I woke up at 9:30am. I had a stressful one because 1 hour is not enough for me to finish what is to be done. I became stressed and rode the jeepney and the FX nervous and stressed out. I reached school by 12:15pm. Our nursery duty will start at 1pm for this day alone. I immediately changed my clothes and do everything that I missed doing i school. I became hasty and my consciousness wants me to do a lot of things at the same time.

1pm, we met at the old student’s lounge. We let our charting be checked my Mam Ga. She told us our errors and we gladly faced it well. By 2pm, we started our duty. I was handling baby Almo and after an hour, he was discharged. I was left with baby Alejandro. He is not present at that time that’s why I started making my cocnept map, interventions for him. I accomplished that later on and he is not yet present. He arrived at 9pm. I quickly changed her diapers and checked all of his vital signs and assessed him all over and made the appropriate interventions at that time.

We were dismissed at 10pm. I was very tired and I left school with a friend and classmate, Jezel Cuyos. I reached home at 11:20pm and started writing this another amazing post at 11:46pm.

——

I am so happy that there are a lot of things had happened in my life. If only I can write everything significant that happened from the day I become informed in the internet blog I can write a lot of insights and experiences. I am not prohibiting anyone to let these information be out in public because I simply respect them. I love life!!! so start your blog today. It will awake your subconschoius mind of the value of blogging/ internet diary.

GOOD NIGHT!

I woke up at 7am ad reached school at 10am. We will have to take our pictures for the wallet size ones on cappin day. We will also receive the other pictures taken on capping day but with disappointment I felt it is not worth the pay. I was not the only ones who feel that way. Some of us felt the angle was bad and some are rushed. Out of 3 photos at hand none satisfied my taste level. It was also very hot inside the student’s lounge. Luckily, I was the 6th student who will have a picture taking that’s why I left immediately after that.

I take my lunch at jolibee and after that, I studied in the library for our incoming quiz on 1pm. I was worried for the quiz because the coverage was too long. By 1pm, I reached room 601 where the quiz will be held. It is a 35 items quiz and I was nervous and tachycardic that time. After the quiz, I gained 29/35. I am so proud of my self. I felt rewarded. The lecture began after the quiz up to 4pm.

I reached home at 5pm, I watched deal or no deal. I made my client presentation for the individual case presentation. I finished it for 45 minutes. I made my sample charting and finished for 15 minutes. I ate my dinner.

I felt lonely but tossed the thought from my conscious mind. I will be waking early for our nursery duty tomorrow starting at 1pm.

Good night!

I woke up early in the morning and there is something bothering my mind. I cannot express it on words alone because I cannot because I repress this feeling. I believe only me can answer my problem which I don’t know where to start. I reached school at 8am and we started our quiz in infant reflexes after a short discussion about reflexes. I surprisingly had a 9/10 quiz there but it is not final. The first item will be checked by Mam Celiz. The class was dismissed at 9:40am.

At 10:00am, I am with leslie and Arra doing window shopping and buying stuff. I am not buying but they are. We also ate together at 11am in jolibee and we enjoy conversing about attitudes of mostly call center agents. We had our laughs and annoying moments which definitely put a cherry on top of the conversation. I also learned at 1pm to 4pm the value of sex needs from Dr. Bautista’s lecture. Sex education is not new to me since it was taught in high school. I learned also that HIV/AIDS is prevalent to call center agents these days. I should choose not to be a call center!!! oh I generalize stuff again.

Anyway, the class was dismissed at 4pm and I photocopied 30 pages for the quiz tomorrow. It will be a hard one and I am suspecting a 30 items quiz. The photocopy costs me 60 pesos!!!! I understand that the price must worth the content. I reached home at pm and started reviewing at 5:15pm up to 10pm. I started doing the chapter 1 of my individual case presentation at 10:30pm and finished successfully from introduction to background of the study at 11pm. Time has been valued at those points.

I apologize for not writing a blog yesterday I was too sad to write. I should not be affected because it does not matter in the end anyway.

GOOD NIGHT!

I woke up 12noon. I am not shocked by it. I started my day taking a bath and then eat my brunch. I satisfied my stomach very well and turned to reviewing. It was cold that time and the sky was pale. I looked into the file that I will be reviewing and started to read and memorize 3 files about sick mother. I am into memorizing mnemonics and ideas today. It is beneficial to use methods in memory retention. It suits me well. After a good review on that subject, I moved to reviewing for the midterms exams. I reviewed the antepartum and intrapartum stages of conception. I finished it well. I finished reviewing on 6pm.

At 6pm, I watched "Monster house." It is a good animated movie. I am not surprised why that movie had a good review in the internet. The storyline is good, creative and easy to understand. I like the graphics much and the pacing was fair at most. I won’t give any spoiler from the movie. Watch the movie in the future on HBO or just rent it.

I spend the rest of the night playing my favorite songs and browsing my favorite websites. It had been a satisfactory day. It has been raining since morning and it is a good time to sleep. We will be having a quiz tomorrow and wish me luck!

Good night!

I woke up at 10am. I left home at 12:30pm and rode a taxi to school which costs me 100pesos. I hate it. I reached school at 1pm and I had changed my uniform. we reached nursery at 1:30pm. Mrs. Ga is already there. She will be our clinical instructor for the rest of 2 weeks. I was very happy. We started our duty in the nursery and there were newly admitted infants. I was assigned to baby Tiu. I injected vitamin K with the supervision of the nurse there. I also took cared of the baby by bathing him very well. I also took in charge for the cord care of the baby. There was a sudden violent reaction from the father that time. He does not want student nurses having his baby cord care. I hate it but no can do.

I waited for baby Tiu to be taken cared of. I received him well after a few hours. I took his 4pm vital signs and all were stable. I was a bit worried about the father but it’s normal. I changed baby Tiu’s diapers and took his vital signs for 8pm. I am smiling wile doing that.

We do not have our dinner that time because of a terminal break. I was bot really hungry but I know some of us are. I also helped some of my classmates on changing the diapers of the baby and also taking their vital signs. I also fed baby Paras by glucose water. I felt happiness while doing it. I am also injecting Baby Tiu, Hepatitis B vaccine on his left anterolateral thigh. This was my 3rd injection since the start of the rotation. I felt honored doing it.

The nurses were kind  especially the nurse on the well baby 1. I do not know her name but she is very accommodating. Mam Sabido taught me a lot of things that I am not sure of. She is a good teacher and a nurse at the same time. I do not know the attitude of the last nurse. My first impression for her was not good. I do not know why but I can feel it.

We left the nursery at 10pm. We did not do any endorsements. I changed my uniform in school and go as soon as possible to eat in jolibee. It is very hot inside and I can blame it from their 1 aircon in jolibee situation. I left there at 10:30pm and rode a taxi because it is raining still. I reached home and paid the taxi 130 pesos!!!!! That is a lot of money!!!!! You can say that again….

I woke up 10am in the morning. I am relieved from fever but still I feel tired. I began doing my concept map, nursing diagnoses and care plans at 10am. I have only an hour to do it. I finished at 11:15am. I am very happy that I succeeded. I left the home for the afternoon nursery duty at 12:30pm. I began feeling uncomfortable, sick and untidy. I had this thinking to not attend classes but my mind says "NO!." I reached school at 1:15pm and immediately changed my uniform. I decided to attend duty anyway.

I had been taking paracetmol every 4hours. I feel confident that I will not breakdown during duty. I have a problem regarding my newborn assessment form but I calmed my self and proceed smiling amidst the uncertainty. We reached 5th floor, nursery section and I hasty done completing my newborn assessment form. Ms. Viason appeared and got our assignments first.

We started our duty at 2:15pm, I was assigned with 2 neonates. One was Decano and the other was a part of a twin, Chua A. I was happy being the nurse for the 2. I took their baseline vital signs and all were stable. I plotted them on 4pm as they were stable data. We also asked by Ms. Viason on certain information regarding the physiology of jaundice and hepatitis B vaccination on a neonate infected by hep B on birth. We had a little difficulty finding reference for the hepatitis B administration. I believe we need a lot of trusted resources for that.

We had 2 breaks, 4:30pm and 8:00pm. We enjoyed our dinner as we watched "The singing bee." It is good to entertain ourselves with the compnay of others. After the break, Ms. Viason returned our checked concept maps, nursing care plans. I felt satisfied when I received my work. I am not expecting a spectacular remark from mam since my work was done for an hour. I laughed when my nursing care plan #3 was remarked with "what else?" I really expecting those remarks.

Before leaving the nursery by 9:30pm, we write the appropriate intake, Bowel movement, urine outputs etc. on the monitoring sheet. When the night shift people arrived, we endorsed the babies to them I was really impressed when Mark’s turn was up. He really spoke the proper endorsement contents. I felt ashamed that I did not spoke of those data since I was one of the students Ms. Viason reminded of the contents of endorsement.

I left school at 10:30pm and reached at 11:30pm in home. I was a bit happy because I do not feel sick anymore just slightly. My father was suspecting another dengue case but I simply ignore it. The chances are already slim since we do appropriate measurements. I am a bit worried with my pimples on the face. Pimples decrease my self esteem somehow.

Life is simply beautiful when fears and obstacles are overcomed.

I woke up at 9am and I immediately checked my body temperature. It is normal, 36.5 celsius. I prepared my self in going to school for our nursery duty. I reached school at 1pm. I changed my clothes to the appropriate Nursery uniform and our group reached nursery at, 1:55pm.

Our clinical instructor for 2 days of this week (thursday and friday) is Ms. Viason. She is smart, hardworking and pretty. We started with an endorsement from the morning shift and I was fascinated by it. By 2:15pm, We entered inside the nursery and I was assigned to Baby Decano. Baby Decano was a quiet one than the other babies. I was anxious when his vital signs did not reach to the normal range values. Ms. Viason and the nurse on duty told me it is normal. Ms. Viason wants us to make our concept map with nursing diagnosis on it (4). By 7pm, Ms. Viason checked our concept maps and nursing diagnoses. I was the first one and was relieved when I’m done. I had a lot of editing and additions to make. My case was shared by Mr. Gonzales, my group mate.

We had two food break, one was on 5pm to 5:30pm and the other is 8:05pm to 8:55pm (dinner). the half of the group is with me and we converse mostly on "the singin bee." I had eaten a meaty diet composed of pig meat and sliced potatoes. I also consumed 2 1/2 cups of rice. We returned to the nursery section at 8:55pm. We completed what was missing in the table for endorsement to the night shift. We finished our duty at 9:45pm.

I and Mr. Mark Gonzales endorsed the babies to the night shift. I was partially nervous but as I talk I became confident. I endorsed half of the babies and Mark endorsed half of them too. I had a little bloopers while endorsing repeating good evening twice. In the end, I was happy because I had experienced endorsing patients which I failed to do in the delivery room. Ms. Viason told me that there are missing information from the endorsement which I understand. She also told me to stay calm and I replied that stress is normal for me.

I commuted on the way home. I rode an air-conitioned bus and reached home at 11:19pm. I tried to call my special someone but the cell phone is busy. I started writing this blog at 11:25pm. I am really dedicated to writing my blog everyday. It is someone been transformed to an online diary.

We have to pass a nursing care plan for each nursing diagnosis with a concept map and the newborn assessment form. I hope I will stake awake tomorrow. It would be grueling hot. I also feel sick, I am not really sweating as I sat in front of the computer. I hope everything will be fine tomorrow duty.

Wish me all the best of health!

I woke up at 9am. I had took a bath and arranged my things for class. I attended class at 12:15pm. There is a class going on in the class room we will occupy that’s why I endured the heat outside. By 1pm, We got inside the room. Dr. Alfonso is our professor for pathophysiology for the rest of the finals period. The class ended at 4pm.

On the way home, I felt bad. I began experiencing fatigue and anhidrosis. It somehow made me smile because I do not like being sweaty at all. At 5:30pm, I reached home and studied for our midterms exam on August 3. I felt really bad because I do not still sweat in a hot room. I really suspect something was wrong.

6pm, I had decided to have a haircut and I felt cold. I reached home without sweating profusely. I prepared for dinner and asked my sister to buy me an oral thermometer later. I am having hyperthermia/ fever of 38.6 degrees celsius. I knew it. I felt hunger but I waited for 30 minutes for my younger brother to cook the dish that I’ll be eating. We had a little argument on it but I won. I eaten a lot and had tool, "alaxan" a paracetamol. I would take it every 4 hours.

This post is dedicated to the 2 years relationship I am currently having with my special someone. July 22 is our 2nd year anniversary. I enjoyed every bit of happiness and sadness in the span of this honest relationship. I remember every good moments we had in each others arms. The thought of those moments made me miss it and smile. I love you so much and what I feel for you won’t change.

I love you with all honesty in my heart. My mind, body and spirit is directed towards our happiness. May God abide us towards a good tomorrow without any harsh tests along the way. I know my life won’t end without experiencing a priceless togetherness with you. Time will test our relationship but it will not break what good we have right now. You are my future and someday I want to live under 1 roof with you.

Some may ask about the history of our love, here is my reply…

We met each other in the internet. Seeing each other face to face made me realize that there’s something in that person I see my self. It didn’t take long and we become long distant couple. We had problems in our first year relationship but it do not matter anymore for me. Most of the 1st year of our relationship is tested.

I will go to the 1 year and a half later. We decided to meet for the first time in April 4. We did meet and I felt my heart palpitate. I suffered my first problems in health last month but I do not care for it. We met and stayed in a hotel for 3 days. We shared our thoughts to one another and I’d felt the warmth of love. I do not want to let go when the time came to separate and I’m holding my tears. I am also not feeling well but my love had exceeded all physical symptoms combined. I waited till the time came for us to meet again in June.

June was a good month. We met once more and treated him all the satisfying things my love can provide that point. I felt sad because I know this won’t be forever. I remembered not sleeping very well on the first days together. I hold the hands of the one I love because I want to transfer all the warmth of love imparted before. I hugged, kissed and expressed my thoughts of love which easily understood and embraced. I won’t forget everything this year had been for both of us. If only I can turn back time and enjoy the time we have together once more, I will do it.

I am patiently waiting for us to meet again. My heart is with you forever and no one can replace you in my heart. If you’re gone, my life will never be the same again. You showered me with selfless love, appreciation, acceptance and care that I never felt before from another person except my mom. I want to see you everyday, converse with laughter and touch with security. If you see me now, I improved my looks because of you.

I want to learn to play the piano to let you hear the wonderful melodies of love. I will be the best man I can ever be. I am Emmanuel Corro, the man who is loved you unconditionally.

HAPPY 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!
mwah

I woke up at 5:15am and reached school at 7am. We had our class to Dr. Bautista on 7am to 9:00am. We discussed needs and wants and then a film showing begun. It is about weight reduction and eating control. It ended at 9am. We had an early dismissal in his subject. At 10am, I bought strepsils because I have a sore throat and I cough a lot. At 11am, I am still coughing and I take one strepsil once more. Strepsil was not that effective at that point. By 11:45am, I go to the men’s comfort room and had my facial cleansing there. I accidentally brushed my naked eye of "master facial cleanser." It has alcohol in it which irritated my eyes a lot. I returned to room 601 at 12noon for we have our class to Ms. Celiz on Sick mother. My right eye was aching and the pain radiated on my frontal skull. Head ache terrorizes my focus on the subject.

We had a quiz on maternal bleeding and cardiac problems. It was not easy and I believe I have an 8 over 15 there. No regrets I face the truth. My head ached a lot. I felt the world is going upside down. I am suffering both head ache and sore throat aggravated by cough. I take 1 lozenge of strepsil and it has been relieved temporarily.

The class ended at 2:30pm but I still have those disturbing physical problems. I felt I was sick at that time because I perspire less in a hot room. I feel tired. I bought a pancit Malabon costs 15 pesos and ate it but it wasn’t enough.

My friends, louise and charms watched "stepford wives" and I joined them. I loved the movie unfortunately we failed to finish it at 4pm. At 4pm, strategies of health teaching is the subject. Mr Briones asked us to form in our RLE grouping. We write on the white board the definition for us on learning environment. I still suffer that dreadful cough and sore throat but the head ache was gone as well as the eye irritation. Mr. Briones had continued discussing the lesson.

The class ended at 6:30pm. I returned home at 8pm. I planned to have my 1×1 picture done in our place but by 8pm the photo shop was closed. Right now, as I type this post I am still coughing and having a sore throat. I felt that I am tasting blood as I cough weird enough for a day like this.

I am still having my vegetarian diet and I am enjoying my weight loss.