The Diary of a Young Man

I called my special someone through cellular phone that had started 11am and was busy. I attempted to contact once again BUT!!! still busy. It is still bust up to NOW! OMG! I am starting to get very angry. Why would the person I care so much WOULD NOT answer my phone calls. I am starting to GET angry. I don’t want to be angry but WHY?!   would that person NOT answer? What are the reasons????? Why?? When? Where? my special someone is NOW!!!!

I cannot believe my anger…. grrrr….. I am so stressed right now!!!! I also send messages BUT no reply. I understand that my special someone is NOT UNLI but my phone calls denied? Maybe the cellphone is left from …. the house???? That’s very nice, very nice to make me feel bad. Thank you for an aweful day. I don’t know how would I express this feeling lightly.

My hyperhidrosis has become less annoying and I started to believe that it wouldn’t stop me from doing something. I am dreaming of a life without this and that is one special gift. As I opened my eyes to the start of the day, I thought of doing more chores at home to ease out the bothering feeling I felt these past few days. I will be thinking not this problem but how to live my life to the fullest. There are people who suffer more than I do.

I am willing to be a part of the so called society of striving hyperhidrosis patient. I am now thinking very positive while playing my favorite japanese songs.

Today was scheduled for a visit to my dentist, Dra. Dolores. She is a very good dentist in fact she put my braces with the least pain possible. I visited her clinic for the start of bracing on the lower set of teeth. I pointed to her my 4 wisdom teeth and  had me x-rayed  the teeth to be removed. By 1pm, we reached the x-ray department and successully accomplished it costing 600 pesos. My dad and I submitted the x-rays and Dra. Dolores said that she can only remove the wisdom tooth that had erupted while the other needs some of my teeth to be removed first. In the end, we agreed to remove the upper wisdom tooth on Monday.

We also go to an optometrist for my damaged lenses. He will replace those lenses for 350 per pair and my dad will get it tomorrow.

I woke up at 5:30 am and took a short sleep at 3:45 pm waking at 7:15pm.

Today, I visited a known dermatogist and she prescribed Driclor, an anti perspirant with a 20% aluminun Chloride. I also asked for the dosage for glutathione. In the end, I had a bottle of glutathione containing 30 capsules and a lotion to enhance whitening in localized areas. In mercury drug, I bought Driclor worth a LOT! and a master facial cleanser for daily hygiene. Once I reached the house I opened Driclor and to my surpirse it is a roll on. I am not expecting a roll on to be used in spreading the solution on my scalp but the dermatogist had said to apply it as effective as I can be.

I decided to apply Driclor on my scalp, palms, feet and armpits before I sleep. I hope it will work effectively to reduce my hyperhidrosis. I spend 4,000 for that!

Have a nice day!

I had read in an article in the internet that when hyperhidrosis occurs think of positive things and sweating is reduced. I believe it is effective. I tried to think of good things abut my self just like what will I look without hyperhidrosis. I am partially satisfied with the ‘mind over matter’ treatment but it would not stop hyperhidrosis permanently.

I will try meditation and for those who suffer hyperhidrosis try it. Did you know that sweating stops when you’re lying horizontally. I find this interesting but is not applicable for people who suffer night sweats.

I love to be me and I can give my 100% confidence if hyperhidrosis will be removed.

I had made a post in this health problem. One thing I hate about people around me is that they are insisting it is PSYCHOLOGICAL! I hate how they think this is brought by will and unstable psychological condition. I want them to do their research and reflect on what they are saying. As I am typing this post both of my hands and feet are SO sweaty. My forehead starts to drip sweat and take note I am in a 22 degrees celsius room.

I hate this situation. I feel very helpless. My carreer, life and social communication with people are affected. I don’t want to be alone facing this problem. I want to cry but I am thinking positive things that happened in my life. I looked at people who do not have this condition as LUCKY! Congratulations to them for they are not bothered by hyperhidrosis, excessive sweating.

I do not want to take ETS surgery. I hope that Drysol will help me get rid of hyperhidrosis. I will face the side effects; irritation of the skin just do not sweat EXCESSIVELY!

I want to build confidence in me and I want to start it tomorrow. Drysol costs high but it is better than living in a condition which people would not desire.

Holy week began this Thursday and I have been not so holy this week. Honestly, I believe that I need someone who can steadily advice me to be holy. I tried to change this way to a habitual goer of the church but the evil in me seem to decline each good thought.

It is Easter Sunday! A good day of the week and last of the holy week. I would like to pray this day and surely I am capable of it. If ever I have been given a chance to talk to God through silence I prefer it in a solitary place away from the noise of the city and pollution of the urban world.

It has been a nice holy week and I hope next year I can show obvious development in my spiritual being.

Distance is nothing for true love. They will find a way to meet and cross each others road. A lover who truly believes that love has no boundary will go all the way to see him.
It is no surprise that distance is not a hindrance for lovers separated by space.

I love you baby and soon we will meet someday in time.

Troubles bring down the strongest men at heart. They do not show their weakness but it progressively wounds them inside. I heard that, "life in trouble is almost suicidal if not treated well." Sadness accompanied by total depression and helplessness aggravates the process of dying. Dying is well known of its mysterious process for those men who celebrate the way of the just.

Darkness is synonymous to evil in terms of nature and structure. A man cannot detect any good if he give him self to the evil one who is named as the Demon. Crimes brought by the wrong doings of men hurt those who’re innocent and those innocent developed revenge and became the men they hated.

Lovers became selfish as they develop the symptoms of hatred, jealousy, total lust and betrayal. One lover ought to love his partner but in a slight false judgment he became delirious and kills his lover and his feelings.

It is never good in the dark. It is so solitary and cold. The air you breathe is choking and irritating. The words you utter are bitter and false.

As I am typing this post I am thinking of my good old computer. This computer was bought 4 to 5 years ago and definitely endured the brash realities of time and space. It had been my inanimate friend and my bearer of secrets. I cannot live without my old computer. It is a pentium 4 PC with a windows XP operating system. It is slow when I bought it but as years goes by and money became plentiful I bought up to date devices that will speed up my computer. I bought a 1 gigabyte RAM card, a 64 MB Video card, several LAN cards and new speakers and head set. It is 10 times faster now and it has been reformatted several times. I spend almost all day with this old inanimate friend.

Internet connection was available since 2006. I was using my computer twice as I was using it before 2006. I became curious about the contents of internet space and explored the forbidden. I was shocked at first but became used to it. Virus and spywares were a problem and it made my computer tired and problematic.

I love my computer and I will never cast my anger to this old pal.