The Diary of a Young Man

I notice since January 2008 that I sweat profusely from my scalp. Anyway, I made my bowel movement this morning and happy to say that there is no blood. I have a normal bowel movement once per day but the weird thing is as I try to excrete the feces I sweat profusely. I do not how sweating a lot when excreting feces affects my over all health. As time passes by I noticed my weight loss from 67 kilograms to a 63 kilograms in 3-4 days alone. I have this feeling that if I do not have colon cancer then I have hyperthyroidism which may lead to goiter and exophthalmos, the protruding of the eyeballs which is very scary to possess. I would like to have a colonoscopy first and then a check up if I have hyperthyroidism because I have the symptoms already. 90% of the symptoms of hyperthyroidism is present that I begin to worry.

May God bless everyone and take care for your health. I love my self and I wish I will live a longer happy life.

I know people for their first impression but most of them are false in long term. When I look around me and seeing people not as good looking as actors in the big screen I mostly do not mind them and just think of personal business. I realized that looks, beauty and status are not the same as personality and attitude. I have classmates that are good looking and some are average looking but what makes them a better person is how do they accomplish their goals in life. They are beautiful in my eyes even if their looks are not superior.

People love to wait for the one they love most. I appreciate people who do this without nothing in return. It is really difficult to do good things to people who you do not know but it is still an act of kindness and beautiful in the eyes of God.

I had a good friend who do not know when and where will she meet the right person for her to love. I agree that it takes more time to love and reflect on your feelings to a specific person. Discovery of love does not take a day to confirm but it will take maybe years to feel and verify.

Waiting is not a positive trait of impatient person because every minutes passing by is an annoyance but it would not be that way if waiting is for a special person. A deeper understanding of another person’s personality will bring you closer to that person and may discover new love.

May people who in search for true love realize that love is skin deep as it is beauty is also skin deep. Next time!

! am happy that for more than a day I received the text message of my very special someone. I love you!

As I sat here typing this post I am thinking of being active in the best way possible. I am dreaming that I am an excellent professional in anaesthesiology and a role model for my siblings. My family would be very proud of me and no negative words would be said. I promised my self that I won’t be the man who will thing negative things all day. It is a good thing that I reflected and made an appropriate action with it.

I love my self SO MUCH!

Wrong identification leads to bigger conflicts. I understood it from the heart. I mistaken something which may destroy something special. It is very hard to admit that I made a mistake but it is a part of personal maturity. It is simply good to admit personal faults than denying an obvious wrong.

Our former president Corazon Aquino was diagnosed with this cancer. It is a difficult condition since most people consider cancer as a life or death situation. Many supporters of the former president are praying for her relief.

I am worried that it may be diagnosed to me since I have few of those symptoms, abdominal cramps, fatigue, thin stool and a bit constipated alternating with diarrhea. If time and money permits, I will be taking a colonoscopy to make sure there is no tumors present in the large intestine. Cancer does not choose a particular age bracket. It can be diagnosed to the youth, adult and teens. I wish I would not possess this. I am too young top have this.

I am a bit negative these days and the thought of cancer made me sad. I do not know how to handle it if I would be diagnosed with that. My parents do not have any history of cancer. Expect the unexpected.

Today I was schedule for my wisdom tooth removal on my right upper corner of my mouth hahaha. Anyway, I arrived at 10:00am at Dra. Doris Dolores’ clinic and there were a lot of people!!! As hours passes by patient left one by one and I was left with a guy who I believe is suffering from tooth ache. It was 12:30pm when my name was called and I was confident to feel less pain in the operation. I was right, anaesthesia was applied and when my wisdom tooth is taken out I felt no pain at all. I leave the clinic with a slight comfort issue. I paid 400 pesos and I have to buy my self few drugs like mefenamic acid 500mg and others if the pain and bleeding became severe.

When I reached home, I removed the cotton balls and replaced it with a new one. I asked my little brother to buy me mefenamic acid and successfully bought 6 capsules. I have to wait when the pain start to arise.

These 2 personalities made me wonder how life work from their view point. I am melancholic but still moving to a positive side. I believe that Phlegmatic people are very calm and also have no worries in shaky situations while cholerics are persistent, straightforward, great leadership skills and somehow dominating. I really hope I can be a choleric to discover how a choleric thinks and acts. Well, it is a difficult topic to discuss self change since not everyone can consistently handle their new personalities from own reflections.

I am so happy that I have known a lot of people who I make sure no negative image is imprinted on their mind from me. It is a beautiful world out there and many people desire a lot to be happy but one day being your self from the start is the one which can make you feel happy.

I love all of you readers!!!! ciao!

I received a text message from my special someone explaining why there’s a failure in answering my calls. In a simple message had the contents of reaching to Laguna but with a bad feeling due to transportation. I have to understand the situation and I am happy there’s a reply.